Tuesday, October 29, 2013

The memory remains

Settling in and unpacking. It feels somewhat strange, surreal even, to be back in New Orleans. Yet at the same time, it feels so right. You begin to realize just how much you miss a place, and how much it means to you to finally have a chance to return. Yet the familiarity isn't quite what it used to be. Things changed so drastically after Hurricane Katrina, and the losses we all suffered here left a lasting impact that will probably never fully heal. Memories and wishing for things to be the way they used to be.

What is harder is not having my mate by my side, but instead separated by such a vast distance. The distance we fought so hard to overcome in the early years of our relationship, only occasionally getting to visit each other during holidays. Otherwise all our interaction was online, or over the phone.

When we were finally able to move in together 8 years ago, we didn't want to look back on the time we were forced to be apart. We never thought we'd eventually end up right back where we were, through no fault of our own and not for lack of trying our hardest to prevent it from happening. Yet here we are again. Me in Louisiana, Mike in New Jersey.  While there are certain good things about being home for both of us and being able to see family again, they do not realize there were unspoken reasons that we originally left home in the first place. I really don't think any of them can comprehend how deeply this has effected us.

We'll hope for the best as we journey down this road.

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