Friday, June 28, 2013

Physical therapy

Had my first round of physical therapy today to help with the back and hip problems, and hopefully knee and ankle too. They used an Ultrasound / Interferential Current (IFC) machine as part of the therapy.

There was mention of some sort of device I might also be able to rent and take home that helps with blocking pain signals for spot treatments of painful areas, and I am wondering why on earth such a thing was never recommended for me before with my Fibromyalgia, if it could offer relief aside of taking more medication that doesn't really fully help anyway.
Sore and stiff from the exercises. Will be doing this for several weeks, maybe longer, building up more as we go along.

Working on finishing two big art commissions. Alternating between finalizing details and painting. Excited to share them.

Thursday, June 27, 2013

Dreams dashed

Here, but not here. Kept to myself to sort out negativity that has been gnawing at me and smothering my will. Struggling with conflicting thoughts over many aspects of many things. Some thoughts darker, questioning life and my inadequacies. Wishing some things were different. Thinking back to better days. Childhood memories and dreams of great things and a bright future. Falling short, it all fell apart. Never to be made whole again.

The dreams I held on to for so many years. I still dream of the wonders, but I have come to accept most of them will never come true, no matter how hard I try or how much I believe in them or believe in myself. The determining factors of them becoming a reality are out of my control.
It's a harsh reality for a dreamer not of this world. But I keep dreaming.

Sunday, June 16, 2013

Father's Day

Happy Father's Day, dad, wherever you are. Well wishes to all the fathers out there.

Saturday, June 15, 2013

Back, Update

I've been away for the past two weeks recovering from a Fibromyalgia flareup after a rough week at work, followed by a painful lower back injury that has severely limited my ability to do much of anything. The doctor prescribed a muscle relaxer to help during recovery, and told me I shouldn't work or drive while on it. Easier said than done. I'm told I may still experience the intense pain for another week or so, and it may be up to six weeks before my back is fully recovered.

I have no earthly idea what on earth I did to cause it, aside of cleaning my aquarium that evening and doing mild housework, things I always do, and am always mindful about how I do so I don't aggravate my conditions to begin with, since excessive physical activities exacerbate them. The first night I couldn't even lift a gallon of milk. You don't really consider how much your back and torso actually do for you, until it hurts to use them in any way.
I'll be catching up on messages people left for me and posts as best I can. If I missed anything you wanted me to see, point me toward it. Apologies if I miss anything.