Reflective Medical Venting

Chronic illness is difficult enough to live with, without constantly being reminded of how much you fail and will probably never live a totally normal life ever again, no matter how hard you try. Medicine doesn't make it all magically better or make it totally go away. Having multiple 'invisible' conditions makes it worse. This is just generalized grief being expressed that has been building for months and months, that I can no longer contain by smiling and pretending to be okay. Sometimes I am not okay, and there is nothing wrong with that.